It’s been several weeks since I’ve written a new blog or been active on twitter or, well…pretty much anything having to do with all this atheist stuff. It wasn’t that I didn’t care or wasn’t thinking or that I had run out of ideas or that I was that my passion for god was suddenly reignited- I was just busy working on other projects (a novel) and frustrated with myself and the direction that this blog was taking, so I decided that I needed to take a break and regroup.
Back around the middle of October I got into a conversation, or at least what I thought was a conversation with a fellow blogger- a believer-blogger and I let him/her get to me. (I’m not sure if it was a chick or a dude, so for the sake of this entry I’m going to refer to him/her as a him.) He really made me angry; pretending like he wanted to have an open conversation but really only had one objective- to tell me I was wrong. I understand and believe that a true believer should do that, but his tactics really got under my skin.
My intention with this blog is to offer an alternative explanation and way of thinking. I am proud of where I am spiritually-or not so spiritually. I have more peace in my life than I ever had when I was hanging on to god. I worry less. I enjoy more. I accept and appreciate better. These are the things I want to share, along with my thoughts and ideas about the psychology of spirituality.
I have yet to go back and edit my previous blogs, although that is something that I still plan to do. But for today, I just wanted to, at least, post a little something to say, “I’m back!”
When I set out to write this blog I didn’t really have a goal. I was mostly just venting out of frustration from all of the Christian propaganda that surrounds me. After a couple of conversations with other atheists that I met on twitter, I realized that I did not want to become and angry atheist and therefore my plan was to focus on offering alternative ways of thinking without name calling or hitting below the belt. I am not a mean or spiteful person- quite the opposite in fact. It takes a lot to make me angry and even when I am angry I usually keep it to myself, or at least take time to cool off before addressing the issue. However, I am quickly learning that keeping my cool is going to be hard for me on this subject. Not because I don’t like Christians, but because I don’t like being told that I don’t know the “truth” about Christianity or what it takes to be Christian.
I know good and well how it works.
My ultimate goal was: to not be offensive to anyone. While I realize that this is an unattainable goal since religious views are very personal and it’s near impossible not to take what I say personally– I can still strive for that goal.
What I find scary and worrisome is that I might offend someone who I know and love. This is why I decided to keep this blog anonymous, well that and I don’t want to lose my job. But mostly because I don’t want to lose the friends that I cherish. It’s hard because I really do feel the things I say, but I don’t mean them at the people I love. They are not the ones saying the things that make me so angry. I’m not being two-faced, I’m just fortunate enough to be surrounded by people who, no matter their beliefs, are accepting of my own.
I guess, my point is- if you are a personal friend of mine and you read this blog, please don’t think that I ever think poorly of you or your beliefs. I may not agree with your religion but that doesn’t mean I don’t respect you.
I understand that you believe that I need saving. I understand that you want me to go to heaven. I understand that it’s your job as a Christian to spread the word. I understand that you “love” me as Jesus taught you. I UNDERSTAND! I GET IT!
Now what you need to understand is that it doesn’t matter how much scripture you throw at me. It doesn’t matter how many questions you ask me about my knowledge of god, Jesus or salvation. It doesn’t matter how much you try to convince me that you are right and I am wrong.
Your imagination is not my reality. I do not believe in god. Therefor your scripture is worthless, you questions go no where and I will know that I am right.
Feel free to pray for me if you’d like.
QUESTION FROM A CHRISTIAN: “If there is an all-good, all-powerful God, He would never allow all this evil and/or suffering that we see in the world.”
Christian Question for the Atheist: “If there is no objective standard of right and wrong, or good and evil (such as God), then how can we even judge that the things we see in the world are evil or wrong?”
Atheists say that an all-good God would never allow all the evil we see in the world.
Yet, how are they even judging whether something is “evil”, without having a standard of good and evil to compare to?
And if they do an objective standard of good and evil to compare this world to, wouldn’t that be God?
MY RESPONSE: Humans feel joy and pain, this creates is an innate ability to know good an evil. No god required.
HIS FOLLOW UP: +Life Reason But how can atheists build their entire argument from evil against God based on an “inner feeling” of joy?
MY ANSWER: Well, evil is just a word. Because atheists don’t believe in god they also don’t believe in satan. But you don’t need either of those mythical creatures to have feelings. Feelings are what we use as a gauge to determine good and bad- or in this case good and evil.
We, as in ALL people don’t need to have a god tell us that something is good or bad. We are a thinking, feeling, deciphering species. We know that joy feels good and pain feels bad. The things that cause feelings are what I might label good and “evil”- but not in a devil-ish way
Nature is far more capable than the credit we give.
I spent the better part of last night and this morning arguing with a militant atheist about how to BE atheist. It started when I posted something along the lines of “If we want the non-secs to respect us, we need to do the same”. This led to him berating me for HOURS even though we’re on the SAME fricken team.
According to him I’m not atheist enough because I’m not ANTI-theist. Supposedly, you have to insult and shame believers into converting because they are responsible for AIDS, among other things. This is the kind of atheist I DO NOT want to be.
The thing is, I’d like to give him credit for some of the things he said, he DID make some decent points. But he was such a dick about the whole thing that I actually tuned him out and simply felt the need to defend myself– which was the whole point of the entire conversation.
I’m always up for a good debate, but you have to know when to walk away.
It ended when he told me that you have to tell Christians that they are stupid over and over again in order to get them to question themselves and their beliefs. My last tweet to him was, “w/your reasoning I should just tell you that you you’re an asshole over and over again until you believe it. would that work??”
–he did not respond.
I wonder if he’ll read this post?